This morning as I was rushing down my (very very narrow & windy) mountain road to go to a client, my mind was on the next 'important' thing, not on the road, and I scraped the side of my car along a fellow Topangan's SUV, completely smashing my mirror off and scratching her car. No one was hurt in any way, but she was very upset, to say the least, 
and quite understandably, since she had her baby son in the back seat on that side. What could be more important than respecting other people's (and my own!) safety? I keep reliving that moment of impact and it sends horrible chills through me. What could have happened...
photo courtesy of Patrick Auto Deals
What really did happen? What was going on for me? This is the second time I have been in an accident in the last two months. Even my mechanic, Jimmy* said, "Jessica, 'they' are trying to tell you something. It's time to slow down and go inside."
Wow. It doesn't get clearer than that! (Don't you just love California?)
I have no choice but to really take a look inside and ask myself why am I sabotaging myself by creating violent impact? Jimmy suggested that it was to get my attention. I think he is right. I have not been attending to my inner life lately, instead I have been feeding my extrovert by connecting with others. Kinda like rushing down a hill not paying attention, hunh?
Although it has been fun and rewarding to be so 'out there', it doesn't feel like my priorities are straight deep down inside. I am not doing my inner housekeeping. I am now clear on that. Can you relate? When I get gut-level honest with myself, I believe my wobble off the path
has to do with leading with my ego, instead of my heart in my daily life. I forgot to take my own advice and put my own oxygen mask on first! Maybe our life lessons have to be so expensive in order for us to wake up?
photo courtesy of Risa Evelyn
This weekend, I plan to slow down some. Some. My sweetie and I are going to hole up and have a 'Make it Happen Bootcamp' where we plan to get some of the larger to-do's off our lists. My organizer buddy Ariane Benefit of Neat Living had a "clutter date" with her husband over Memorial Day weekend and I am excited to follow her lead.
But after what happened today with my car crash, I am certainly going to build in some fun time, some down time and some self-care time. How about you?
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((¸¸.·´ ..·´ Jessica -:¦:-
*I happen to have an amazing mechanic, thank heavens, his name is Jimmy Butler, and if you live in the LA area, you have to know about Jimmy. If there is anything wrong with your car, mechanical or bodywork, he takes your car and goes around to the shops that he trusts and gets you the best price and the best job at no cost to you. I have saved thousands of dollars and uncountable amounts of frustration and stress knowing he was on my team. His website is Ask Jimmy.
